Friday, April 24, 2009

Regretting blues

I find people rationalizing their moods these days. You know, like, this is a so-and-so occasion, so I need to be happy. This is a so-and-so occasion, so I need to be happier. As a result of which, reasons to be 'not happy' are chopped off – off public view, off even own view for most. As if, forcefully eliminating the very emotion from your life. No blues, stay away. You are not wanted.

When people are upset, the necessity to justify that emotion, I notice becomes a lot greater than the necessity to justify a happy emotion. Almost like, people are sorry that they are unhappy.

I wonder why.

I returned home a couple of days ago to find NFM with red watery eyes, red watery nose, red mouth.

"You have been crying?"
"mmm... yeah"

"Ok... have you eaten?"
"yeah... had Maggi"

"Cool... do you want to watch Devil Wears Prada?"
"No... some other time maybe"

"Ok"

I enter my room, change, wash, then hit the kitchen to get grub. NFM follows.

"Sorry... I think I am PMS-ing"
"Its alright really... even if you are not PMS-ing... cool to let go once in a while"

She is relieved.

Think: do we ask / hound/ badger people when they are super happy?