On not being able to sleep

And now, approaching midnight, I don't feel like sleeping. Though I slept for about 15 minutes in the evening – last night I got very little of it.

After polishing off a quarter bottle of wine, I had tucked myself into bed – feeling happy at a new (and interesting) sleeping medication so to speak. I got woken up precisely an hour later the moment the effect wore off. Then battling with my thoughts. Then some arbit smses sent out, arbit phone calls made, arbit discussions had until about 4 in the morning. And I returned to my duvet feeling more than just irritated.

And now, I don't know – something scares me about going back to sleep.